I have a post I intend to post..but as I want to, another occasion comes in untill I don’t feel its suitable to spill out how I feel right that moment…in a mix of feelings, I better be a recent person and just get into the topic. (which I still doubt whether to mention or not).



I bought a new book which writes about pain. Hvnt read much, but I do get some perspective on pain now. I cant tell much yet about what I read, coz I only finish a quarter of it. But as I grab that book of the shelf, the title caught my heart, which I really want to know where is God when it hurts.


I am still in a mix of feelings, that I am jumbling up all that I want to write into one post. Pausing at the com for a moment, to think back what is it I wanted to write.


Friends in certain stage of our life changes, it may not be a drastic change, but maybe a slow process. As we all move on in different parts of our lives, sometimes even best friends feels far away.


At points of our growing life, friends that are close to us may start to have a different thinking about something. Maybe even different thinking about the same things you both agreed last time. Some friends will mature faster than us in their environment that they now work or study. Some friends will still be on the same pace as us.


And maybe, you both will start to like different things and don’t find common interest. While the world is so big outside, our friends may find other friends that share the common interest, common views, common experiences.


Yes, if there maybe someone like that come in the middle of their life, we cant be jealous and worry they would not want to be our friend again. Sometimes we just have to have a open heart, to let them have the opportunity to have a friend they are so fond of.


Although there maybe a gap in between, but for me, I will remember that we shared our pass together which is very delicate and memorable for everyone. Even if they may not notice it yet. We continue to be by their side, reminding them that we are still here, and it was us that they always want to hang out with.


Sometimes, distance become our enemy, and time bcomes a greater enemy. But inside us is our strongest weapon, that is our hearts. You have a heart, that can love and show love. Although sometimes we get hurt and dissapointed, but that is not the reason to give up. We cant stop loving the world anymore if we always get hurt. To feel pain just makes us appreciate the simple joy we have.


I may not understand even if I write so much here, but all I want is actually to give you courage. Give u another view, don’t close your heart.


I am afraid when I type this post. Afraid of what I say. Because I am not so good in talking or even writing.

I just wan you to be happy. I hope I can do that. *pray*

its been so long i have not updated, days goes by and everything just happens...


places i went and places i go. but i usually don't just chatter about places i've been, its always how i feel that is what tat matters here.


just before this post i talked about begining of a new semester, and now this little semester is coming to an end. could u consider it as fast? I would agree deeply as you can see its a distant of only a post..haha..


What actually did happen within this two months that is going to expire soon in 2 weeks plus (which includes my finals)...


Alot alot of sweet unforgetable memories im sure i would want to share discreetly with you all..haha..but just leave it to my love chest. although times have been hard for i see her lesser these 2 months, but im glad we did not shatter merely by just distance. Instead it trains us to control how much we miss someone, cumulate all that miss, and pour it out when we meet on weekends.


Some weekends we go ride bicycles, some weekends we climb hill, some weekend we just go for a jog, and some weekends we go elsewhere. Some things may seem simple,  but just as simple as it can be, i am happy for all the small small things i get to do with u. and i noe u feel it too.


To apreciate a simple thing isn't what everyone can do, or able to notice. Sometimes when u have so much, u would just want more and more, until u forget or have no feelings for small small things people do for you.


To appreciate is with the heart, not the brain nor by logic. It is not an obligation or a must, but a way to show you love what the person has done for you. I love each and everything you had made for me, done for me, and all the places you go with me.


i love.