addicted!

damn! been addicted to this com game since like a week ago now...

it aint that fascinating but i love completing the stages and hitting the “expert goal” which doubles my income…

Guess u’ll be wondering what sort of games is this…while it’s just a simple game Say Li intro me,

>>Burger Rush<<

Ahh…I never been more satisfied in hitting the high score. Basically i have to match 3 ingredients together in order to create to burger. A burger may consist of few ingredients such as the meat, vege, sauce, or cheese…

Customers keep comin in, besides preparing the burger, we can serve soft drinks and fries too…yummy! There’s a targeted goal each day with how much income u should hit, and after that you have the expert goal u have to hit to double the tokens earn.

Argh, I’ve been crazily addicted to it till I don’t go out at night anymore…(kua cheong d)…

Haha…I really stayed at home in my cozy room just as I finish bathing and dinner, when usually I’ll go out to meet the guys up. I sent advance messages to them saying that “are we going out tonite? If yes, im not coming anyway~~” haha…

People who make a habit in calling me at night have to get use to my new addiction, telling them that I didn’t go out and play game at home instead make them felt curious.

I play at work, play at home, and almost wanted to bring the laptop out with me when I go out at night…soon I won’t be able to socialize like a normal person…then I’ll suffer from autism which means I only talk to myself and stay away from people…neh! Think too much….


Ceh, eventually I’ll get bored of this game soon…but haha…I still need to keep beating my own high score and make the whole board with my name on it “M”…ngek ngek ngek…

here

I am still here, and I am still me

If I say I did not change, that is a lie. I’ve changed, and changed. Now in the end, I am molded into a better me.

I’ve been ‘bad’ and I’ve been good…yet I turn bad and now can I say that I am good?

Rome wasn’t built in a day, but it shattered in just moments… all the heart I pour out for, and all that I reach out to, all is forgotten and now I am condemned.

I am no longer the one people looks up to, no longer that steady ME that they lean on.

The feeling is like, you are typing a document that you need to hand over urgently, you almost finish it but suddenly u accidentally spilt coffee on the lab top. Nothing is saved, and you have to type it all over again.

I remember I was very patient, I could dwell and take anything that comes in my way. But I don’t know since when, I cannot control my own anger, my dissatisfaction, my anxiety, my mind, and my actions.

The people I was good to, the people I helped, and slowly one by one they move away. Every one moving on to different paths of their lives, while some move away because their legs tell them to.

I am no longer someone anyone can rely on. I am no longer someone that cares. I am just a brutal heartless person, who doesn’t know how to be satisfied.

If I take a step, to climb up again, will anyone see that I am back? Or will they just remember how filthy I became? What if everything happened so coincidentally? That the people around me only saw the dark side of me.

I’m glad that my friends are still around me, and I did not lose them to the war against myself. Now I am picking up the shield and moving forward to take back my dignity. Although I may lose the battle, but I won’t give up on myself.

I know that I still exist, and I want so badly for her to see it.

time to change

all new...

guess its time to move on and leave the past to rot by itself...

i am still me, and i ain't refusing the past...just that the older blog is really old, n really needs some touch up...


so do enjoy my bull shitting and emotional moments...do hope to post more 'happy' stuffs though, so harap harap begitu lah..



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