burst

Finally the tumor on my leg burst.

Accidentally knock my left hip to something last week, and I felt pain since then. Been clumsy, and knocking into things lately.

To those who knows, n saw it…it has become red and purple.

But don’t worry. I am ok.

Last two days were SUKEM, which is the inter colleges athletics championship. After leaving the tracks for quite awhile, I am amaze that I still have some tricks up my sleeves. Hahaha…

Got 3 gold medals and 1 bronze out of 4 events. Did not expect this many gold, and I could not sleep the night before the 1st event.

This time it is so different, meeting new friends in a totally new environment that no one knows you. except for a few friends lah. Who is fast and who’s not? Who can I share what I am feeling right that moment? Who will feel happy for me when I win? Who will be cheering for me when I feel scared?

This time is different, coz you call up, and everything changes.

It is a miracle that I can still run with my bump on my left leg. Yet yesterday the skin started to peel, a sitting down on the floor sometime hurts.

Worried, I start to think, if I die, what will it be? So many things going on in this second who will know how I really feel? So many to say to so many cherish people. I can’t die like this.

Then, when I woke up this morning, I look at it. There’s white thing coming out. I am positive that I am going to die. Gone crazy for a while, but I kept on with my daily routine.

Go bath, eat breakfast, play FB. Den, I look at it again. the white stuff came oozing out. I just gotta wipe it away. While wiping, I keep thinking, when oni can wipe finish?

Change my clothes and when to take bus. In the bus, I almost cried.

Was late to class and my face was pale white. I could not look at myself, but Night told me. Cat asked me whether I’m having a bad mood. Solemnly I reply with only an “Ehn.”

Couldn’t talk to anyone, only sms with KY and you.

I did not want to tell mum about this, didn’t want her to get worry but I guess I can’t take it anymore. I have to tell her, and ask her to ask my doctor what I should do.

At last, during class mum replied saying that it is normal for it to burst. I felt so relieve, I could smile again.

Although this is supposed to happen, I still have to bear the pain, and take good care of my leg. I hope that this time it will be cured and I don’t have to worry about it. Don’t have to make the people around me worry.

Recover faster…