no broken hearts

How u feel now, is how I feel 3 years ago.

This is just a phase for u to grow up stronger, don’t give up loving someone. You never know who can treat you better. I’ve done my best for you, I make it all possible. Now it is time for me to move on, and find my inner happiness, and your true self.

You will mold up into a better person after each fall, look what happen to me. After falling so hard, I start to stand on my feet stronger, yet still scar and skeptic about love.

Everyone at this moment of time have been hurt deeply, till the extend no one wants to pour out their love no more. I admit I can’t pour out all I once had in me for you. I can’t fall that hard anymore. My heart isn’t whole to start with, therefore I become conscious. Protecting myself from love’s catastrophe.

Until now, this heart is still not whole. This heart isn’t in one piece. It keeps cracking; I don’t know how much I could hang on any longer. I now you love me. You really do, but you don’t show it. You always think that I don’t need so much care. Don’t need you to ‘sayang’ me.

I can’t leave my heart here to crack some more…it will break. When I restore my energy, to make my heart full again, strong harsh winds blow it back down. Seasoned by your actions and cold winds, I prefer to keep my heart as a whole, before I wear out, before our fire burn out.

I am still here, I have not gone completely.

Your turn to need me so much, I can’t give you anything anymore. I can’t be there with you every day, all the time; you need someone that can do it, for you.

Don’t say that you will walk the road ahead alone. You have such good friends by your side. They are there for you. Although I feel the vast difference between us, I still can feel that they will be there to guide you.

I need to see a smile…not tears…no broken hearts, just moving on.

I want to be happy, you to be happy.