diamond or sand?

Blood pouring,
Tears flowing,
Air gasping,
I still can’t breathe.

Crunching hearts,
Beaten minds,
Weary souls,
I still am tired.

When I needed you, where were you?
When I was standing in front of you, what were you doing?
When I loved you, where did you put my love?
All was when and when means the past…

I love you so to hurt you even more,
Love you so to be hurt like this,
Love is what I can’t give anymore,
I am sorry I can’t go on like this.

I just need to protect this fragile heart,
Not made of diamonds,
But mere sands, blown by winds,
In your hands, you could not grasp.

Time is not on our side,
For time was what I gave,
But time made a fool of us,
Time took my heart away.

How long is time?
How long does it take to make me smile?
How long does it take to break my heart?
How long does it take to understand.

This heart came back to you,
Begging you to take it in,
With past regrets,
It hopes to see changes.

For you I pluck the stars,
For you I’d cross the oceans,
I stayed the same,
Loving you even more.

Maybe I hurt you too much,
For you to show me that u love me,
Hurt you too deep,
For you to actually show that you care.

Deep inside I know you love me,
On the outside, it does not show,
You’ll care and cry,
But a tear is not what I want.

Laughter, where have you been?
Comfort, are you there?
Joy, I know you are here,
But worry, is always next to me.

Go on and tell me you will change,
Baby, hasn’t it been awhile now?
No you can’t change in a day or two,
And I can’t fight any longer for you.

I am not running away,
I’m just walking away,
I am not far away,
But I am not here to stay.