ambivalent

it is so weird that she doesn't knows what she really wants.

here i am standing all along. night n day, sunny or raining..i've not move an inch.
not a step further nor a step behind.

"i am sorry i don't have a role for love to play,
handover my heart, i'll find my way..."

its hard to stay this way. after months i lay here this way. for once i thought u'd shut d door, but why you come back to haunt me?

it hurts so much when u touch me. yet i let u lean on me. i have no guts to push you away. but u answered me, let's just be friends...

i stood still, keeping my cool, realizing that whatever i did, u wont forgive me deeply.

u didn't even open your heart to me, how could u feel that feeling we had before?

can't you see i don't feel it too? you have not deicde, but u lean on me.
i know when we touch, your heart isn't there.

everythings needs time..im not asking for us to go fast...we can start it all over...but why you push me aside?...and pull me in again...

i wait upon you without a move is cause i know that u cudn't forgive me so easily. but could you see that there were so many walls between us?

there were so many misunderstandings. all i can do is wait here...cause explaining isn't the answer...i am sorry...