lost again...

I pass through many sad and hurtful things in my life. For me, everything may be dark and gloomy, but I choose not to be, I choose to be satisfied with what I have, even if I don't have.

I’ve lost so much already, and when finally something good happened to me. It has to go away as well? I don’t complain, because I’ve known that there’ll no way someone like her would walk into my life again.

I gave up finding anyone like her, because I don’t want to be disappointed, not able to find this angel. I don’t look for anymore angels that are flying, I just stay there sitting.

But why, did you appear to me? You gave me light and lifted me off my feet. You brought back that sweetness in honey. You made me write and write again. This feeling I lost and I thought will not come back.

If I get hurt again I know I can take it, but to not able to try is something I will regret.

When I finally I thought I a miracle is happening, it is not a miracle after all. Again as I have thought, the one I loved would not spend her days with me.

Lost too much, to lose you.

Don’t care about the love and pain in front of me, I just wanna be happy.