could i make it?

its just almost 5 months after she past away...
but as each day passes, it hurts even more deeper...
isn't it suppose to be better as time wash away that scar...

ur cousin sister sms me just now..i was lying on the bed with the lights on, with my mind on whatever that came across...

i formated the phone and lost a lot of numbers...even mann's number.

all of a sudden i saw a msg saying that "im at janice's hse now..tonight gonna stay at her room"...

terkejut saya...

actually it was mann...she overnite at her house tonite...coz she'll be going to penang with auntie tml...

i've been missing her these days...even nicky oso sometimes tell me the same thing..
i just act thoug...n ignored that msg...

but tonite..i could cry again...when i recall the times when she told me how much she love her new house so much...her furniture...her appliances...the condo's facilities...

the last time we were in her hse was on new year's eve...we had a splended night steamboat...

audrey was there too...we prepared our meal tat night together...at her hse...

evrything was so delicious as d ingredients were custom chosen...

adrian even bought whisky for us...had dinner...sip a little..

if that wasnt enuf...we went swimming in the middle of the night...no one else but us..

too bad the guard had to chase us off...so funny...had to go back up...just in time to see the fire crackers on her balcony that night...

but she wasnt tat happy...like always...she remain d shady...fought on the phone with her bf...

anyway...adrian and i would owaz bring things back into mood...even if she was frowning inside...

J...we all miss u even more and more each day...u've impacted us so much...

impacted the ppl around you, as u were a down to earth person who show concern to ppl all ard you...never hurt anyone...but owaz hurted by people...

be cool gal...we're here living our days not letting u go...keeping u as an example...remind us to cherish our frens by our side...

even if we scar each other...now and then...its just a move for us to grow...